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The Shark Bite Diner, 1958
The writer took Julia to the Shark Bite Diner. His favorite. It was a quaint little diner that turned into a pub by the evenings, but was a café and restaurant by day. It was just a five minute walk from the Tribune, too. And you could get real blueberry pie. The berries were smuggled in, of course, but blueberry pie none the less. It didn't say surface blueberries on the menu, but at that price it couldn't be anything but. You could taste it, too. At the thought of real berries Julia got really excited and even though it certainly wasn't cheap, the writer got her one piece of blueberry pie. Lord knows when they could have real berries next time. Ryan's goons could burst in any time and shut the place down and have the owner vanish. Though, evidently, Frank Fontaine had invested in the pub and he was dead. Killed by Ryan's goons. So, they might be out of real blueberries. He rushed all those thoughts aside, deciding to live the now, then and there with Julia Jensen. They sat in a booth, across from one another. The waitress who took their order was a cute young woman who tried to act nice, but you could see she wasn't very fond of the job. She was a splicer, using teleport to give customers faster service. So the plasmids weren't just bad. The writer ordered himself a bit of blueberry pie as well. And coffee.
He was, again, shy and mostly unable to find the right words. It was mostly she who led the conversation. But he found that it got easier when it was just the two of them, and when he wasn't caught off guard. Also, he saw in her eyes that she was enjoying herself. Not knowing what to do with his hands he kept thumbing the tablecloth, a white and red checkered plastic cover. Exactly what you would expect. As they were waiting for their pie and coffee, the writer said:
"Are- are you okay? I mean, with what happened the other night."
She looked down on to the table cloth, reluctant to remember the ordeals. Then she nodded, looked up and smiled. "I'm fine. Nothing really happened. You came along at just the right time."
"Are you sure? He didn't hurt you?"
"Don't worry", she stretched back a bit, "I'm a big girl. It's nothing to worry about. As a matter of fact, I feel better now than in a long time."
"Really? That's good to hear." The waitress popped up, out of thin air, having teleported back with their pie. Looked like she was trying to act casual and try to fish for tips. The pie was delicious.
"You know", Julia said, just as she had finished her pie, "that is the best thing I've had since I came to Rapture."
"See, I told you. They know their pies."
"I think it's you, who know yours", she said, giving a glimpse of a smile and a quick look into his eyes. Just the kind of thing that made him unsure what to say. "I've not had real blueberry pie in ages", she went on, "I'm glad you finally decided to ask me out. I'm sure you've been meaning to for some time." Again, that smile and the look. She was trying to discern what he was thinking.
"I have", he said, thumbing the table cloth, "but I wasn't sure you would want to, miss, miss Jensen."
She smiled again, but not just a glimpse this time. "You can call me Julia, if you want."
"Sure, I, uh... sure, Julia."
"And I'm sure, Chrissstian-" she elongated the S "-that I may call you by your first name?"
"Of course. I prefer Chris though."
"You don't like your full name?"
"My father was Christian Perkins. I'm Chris Perkins. You know?"
She smiled again. "So... Chris... your new book... is it autobiographical? Do you long to go back to the surface?"
"Shush, miss Jensen. You can't talk about that. Never know who's listening."
"It's Julia, remember?" She winked.
"Julia. You shouldn't talk about such things."
"I shall contain myself", she said, sounding official, then returning to her normal intonation, she went on: "do you, though?"
It occurred to the writer that she might not really understand what it was to speak sedition (treason!) in Rapture. It wasn't entirely safe. Just look at what happened to Sofia Lamb, vanishing from the public eye. God knows how.
"I, no", he said, "right now, there's nowhere I would rather be." Julia blushed and looked down. Then she looked up again, straight into his eyes.
"Me neither", she said.
Arcadia, 1958
"So tell me, how does one become a writer?" Julia asked, as they walked along the beautiful garden of Arcadia. The place in Rapture where green grass and lush trees existed. The lack of sunlight meant nothing could grow naturally, but Julie Langford did a great job still, keeping the place going. There were bees here and there in Rapture, most of them in Arcadia. He'd also noted another insect was the butterflies that had sprung out as of late, the blue morpho that grew armor on the inside. There were no birds though. The writer had to think back to remember the sound of birds. He and Julia walked quite close, almost huddled together. The writer took that as a good sign, though it'd be hard to find bad signs between them anymore.
"I don't... it's not really something you become. There's something inside you all the time. A burning creation. To make stories. Anyone can write stories down, but a writer will always have a spark of creation in him. That's what being a writer is about to me, anyhow. Take this place, Rapture. All these workers built the city. They wrote the story down-" she looked puzzled a moment, and then realized he was using a metaphor "-but Andrew Ryan was the writer. They just don't call him a writer."
Julia stopped and stood in front of him. "You know", she said, "I, too, am a writer."
"You are?" He was amused. She blushed. Just a little. And she nodded slightly.
"Uh huh", she said, "I've made up a story too."
"What's it about?" He saw something in glimmering in her eyes just before she spoke. And she spoke almost in a whisper.
"You, me, and behind that bush over there", she said stepping closer to him.
"Miss Jensen!" She smiled and he saw the glimmer of innocence and femininity in her eyes again. She stepped even closer and he felt his shyness wash over him. But she didn't. A bee flew by between them, buzzing away on its business. She followed it with her eyes and then looked back into his. And again her eyes glimmered. That spark. Her eyes, blue as the depths, told the story.
"Kiss me", she said, but it was she who was leaning in closer. She closed her eyes. He felt her hands against his sides. And he put his hands on her waist and leaned in closer as well.
A throat was cleared, but not by him, or her. Her advances interrupted, they looked to the side. There stood two burly men, both wielding Thompson machine guns.
"Sorry to interrupt", one of them said with a thick Russian accent. The writer recognized him from some photos. A goon of Ryan's, name of Karlosky. He went on, turned to the writer: "you will have to come with us."
"What's going on?" The writer said, skeptic voice.
"Mr. Ryan wants word with you."
"What about?" The writer could feel Julia's hand wanting to hold his and cast a quick glance at her. She looked frightened, unsure what was going on.
"Don't know. You come or I carry you?"
"No, I'll come. I, uh..." The writer turned to Julia.
"Not to worry", Karlosky said, "will make sure young lady gets home safe." Karlosky sounded genuine and even nice when he said it, and the writer found that he trusted him to make sure Julia was safe. Karlosky went with him and the other man with Julia. Karlosky led him away. He hoped this made him seem important, but in the back of his head he remembered the rumors about what happened to people who disappeared. The rumors about Sofia Lamb and James Holloway. They better not be true.
The Shark Bite Diner, 1958
Billy, the teleporting splicer, hadn't had a taste of ADAM in days. All the EVE had run out of his system, and he had no use of his powers. In his hand he held the knife that took Sam's life. He'd licked the coagulated blood on it, but he felt no ADAM in it. He'd also tried to hack one of those vending machines to make it spit out a free prize, but it was fucking impossible. Kept getting shortcut and giving him a shock.
Now he was shaking. Couldn't think clearly. His head was aching from the ADAM withdrawal. He saw faces. Faces from when he was who he wanted to be, and from the times they weren't memories. They asked of him to come and join the other side... He sat in the corner booth of the Shark Bite Diner, up in central Rapture, looking at the checkered table cloth while carving the underside of the table with his knife. He'd noticed that redhead chick, he'd seen her sometime before. She'd left with some regular Tom when he came in. Billy was screaming on the inside. Just fucking typical of the waitress to come up to him.
"Look. You can't stay here if you don't order anything", she said, trying her best to keep a strong face even though all she wanted was to go home herself and have a plasmid. She was a saver. Had several tonics at home she had yet to try.
Billy looked up and saw her. She was mocking him! He got up and drew his knife, hand shaking and eyes wide open. His pupils were dilated making every light a thousand times brighter. And in his brain all he saw were the people mocking him. He put the knife against the waitresses throat, poking her skin with the point. The other guests in the diner were shocked, and they too started laughing and mocking him!
"Stop your stupid laughing! It makes you look like a whore!" He was shouting. "Someone just give me a fffucking EVE hypo or this bitch gets it! I swear it! I'll cut off her tits!" He screamed uncontrollably. Billy the splicer didn't at all notice that the waitress was crying and begging for her life, standing petrified out of shock. If she hadn't been in shock, she could have teleported away from the maniac.
"Stop laughing and give me a fffucking hypo!" No one around moved. They just kept laughing and mocking him. "Fuck! Fuck! Fffuck!"
He stuck the knife into the waitresses chest, instantly feeling the warmth of the blood squirting over him. He reveled in her death, screaming as he killed her. That's what he did to people who mocked him! He snuffed her fucking life out. Not once, not twice. He kept stabbing her until she became a bloody pulp, the blood spurting all over him.
He couldn't stand all the mocking! When there was nothing left of the bitch but blood and guts and the red remains of a human being he started going through her pockets for tip money. His hands were all slippery from her blood. Two fucking bucks? That's it? He took the rest from the cash register and hurried out and to the vending machine just outside. He could hear them still mocking him in there.
"Hurry up you stupid piece of shit!" Even the waitress mocked him. Stupid bitch. He showed her, though. "Fucking finally!" In no time he put the needle against his skin, thrust it in and the ADAM in his blood was activated. Suddenly everything was clear, the events of the last few minutes erased from his deranged mind, and with a smile he vanished in a cloud of entropic energy, into thin air.
Without ADAM, Billy was a plain old lunatic. Grade A crazy. With ADAM... he was a calculating psychopath. And this fucking city was his for the taking.
Daniel Wales' Office, 1958
The Pearl was yet one of the finest places to live in Rapture, even with Siren Alley's descent into the red light. Now even Daniel Wales, one of Rapture's own architects, was running girls. One of them was a young woman who'd lost her job and even though she had rich folks, she turned to whoring. But he'd gotten tips from some of the other girls that young miss Reid kept too large a percentage of the earnings for herself, so to speak. Now he had to show her who's boss. And all of that was tiresome. All the whores were fucking whiny. Gave him a headache on a regular basis. He stood in his office on the top floor of the Pearl, pouring himself a glass of whisky with which to murder the pain in his head. It was a small office, part of his own private apartment. The best one in the Pearl, of course. It had a lounge with a high end piano and a nice view of Rapture's architectural beauty - which he designed along with his brother, Simon.
Fucking Simon, he thought. The sap had been getting in with that bitch Sofia Lamb a couple years back, when the brothers started getting trouble finding contracts and started a worshipping service in Pumping Station 5, converting people into that crackpot religion of Lamb's. Shaking his head, Daniel picked up an Audio Diary from his desk and hit record. Earlier in the day he'd received a present from Simon...
"Tonight, I had a pain in me head... so naturally I came up to me office to murder it with a drink. And there on me liquor rack... was a bottle of sacramental wine from me dear brother Simon." He looked over at the wine bottle. Fine wine. Not the watered down piss you could get from Worley Winery. Probably it was smuggle goods. He shook his head, "of course, the vintage date on the label is the code to enter his territory. Nineteen - nineteen. I should pass his bleedin' wine through me system and send it back warm."
He stopped recording and took a deep breath, trying not to think about where he was at. He was running girls, and Simon thought he was saving souls. Could you believe Daniel had ever shared a womb with such a sap?
Behind him, there was a knock on the door. He sighed, sweeping the whisky, and bade whoever it was on the other side enter.
"You wanteda see me, Mr. Wales?" A woman said, trying to pretty up her voice so as not to appear suspect. He turned around. It was Sandy Reid, sure enough. She was a tall woman, too tall for Wales' taste and she wore an ugly dress that pushed up her womanly delights, making them nice, big and plump. The low cut dress showed off her slender thighs. With it, a faceful of makeup, curled up bangs of dark brown hair and black pumps. All in all, thought Wales, not a pleasant looking woman. Then again, Siren Alley was the place to go to scratch an itch you were ashamed of, even in a town with no laws.
"Ah, miss Reid, innit?" He said with his thick Irish accent. "Sit down." He sat down himself, behind his desk, leaning his head back, almost knocking it against the hard safe in the wall behind it. He should really put up a painting there. He waited for her to sit her delicate ass down, too, then went on:
"Now, miss Reid-"
"I know what this is about, Mr. Wales", Sandy Reid interrupted him, looking at him with big puppy dog eyes, "and I ain't stealing nothing." Wales poured himself another whisky, seemed like he'd get proper drunk and highly likely introspective if he kept it up.
"Now now, I'm not throwing accusations. But I heard a rumor-"
"Well it ain't true."
Daniel Wales swept his whisky. "Listen here young miss..." his voice was threatening yet calm. "I'm the feckin' boss here and you do best in shutting the hell up when I talk to ya. If I find out you're stealing me money I won't be a forgiving man. Understand?" The vein in his forehead threatened to pop his entire skull.
"Yes, Mr. Wales." Sandy Reid did shut up. She looked down in defeat.
"Now, answer me truthfully. Are you stealing me feckin' money?" The tension was palpable as he stared hard and cold into the whore's eyes. She shook her head, but didn't say a word. Good for her, he hated the whining of the whores.
"Good. Now get the fuck outta me office."
Sandy Reid hurried out of the room and left Daniel Wales with an even bigger headache. He sighed to himself.
"Feck it", he muttered.
Then he took his pump shotgun from under the desk, got up from his ass and went out of his office, walking calmly past the hall and the lounge and out the door. Miss Reid was standing just outside, lighting a cigarette, her hands trembling, still nervous from the meeting, and correcting the wrinkles in her fuck ugly black dress.
"Hey, miss Reid", the Irishman said crookedly. She turned and looked at him with a surprised look on her face. She raised her eyebrows when she noticed the weapon in his hands.
"Pucker up ya daft bastard", he crowed. He pointed the shotgun at her belly, and fired. The woman was split in two. Muttering to himself, Wales went back into his office and poured another whisky. He swept it and poured one more. On the desk was the bottle of wine he'd received earlier with the code on it.
"Feckin' Simon. And feckin' whores." Now he had to have someone clean up outside, too. Murder that pain in the head with a drink.
Atlantic Express depot, 1968
Making its way up the elevator was a gloomy Mr. Bubbles. A rare thing to behold, the awakened soul of a Big Daddy. But this one was. And it was not a dream. With heavy heart the flesh inside tried to remember, 'who am I?' And still, the bond to the Little Sister at its feet was strong. Something made Mr. Bubbles wish nothing more than her safety. This Tenenbaum promised to help with both those goals, and so Mr. Bubbles played along. But... the drill was ready.
"Mr. Bubbles, can't it go any faster?" The Little Sister said, impatiently. And at that, the elevator came to a sudden stop between two floors.
"Mr. Bubbles?" The girl said, frightened, as the elevator started on its way back down. It creaked and hissed. They were trapped like rats, and the elevator slowly made its way back down. The glass doors made the surroundings visible. Each floor was empty and devoid of people, with the exception of a rotting corpse on one. There were broken train parts scattered, and over all, it was an evacuated, dark place. In the surrounding darkness, something was hunting them. Watching them.
"Herr Bubbles, you must hurry", Tenenbaum whispered, "there is something after the little one." She realized they were stuck, Mr. Bubbles hoped. The elevator ground slowly downward until it finally reached the ground floor, from which they'd come.
"Hurry", Tenenbaum called, "to the other elevator across the room." As the elevator doors opened, Mr. Bubbles picked the Little Sister up to let her ride on his shoulder and set across the darkened waiting area. He had to go around some debris to get to the next elevator. As he did, he noticed the shadows moving along the walls of the circular switching station they were in. Someone, or something, was creeping fast as the eye. All Mr. Bubbles could catch a glimpse of was the glimmer of armor and the shadow that the creature was. It was hiding in the darkness, but clearly showing itself; I'm here and I'm watching you. He hurried as fast as he could, and finally reached the other elevator. They started upward again.
Up, past the several levels of deserted train station. Darkness seemed all knowing, eternal. Memories flashed of a bustling city, filled with life. Now, all around, emptiness reigned. The girl waited impatiently, until at last the elevator stopped and the doors opened. They were in a small maintenance section. There were crates from Sinclair Solutions lying about.
"Just over at the ticket booth", Tenenbaum said. The lights worked, but buzzed and crackled. The next room was a waiting area, drenched in darkness. Only a vending machine gave some light, flickering in blue, the clown on the face of it smiling in the dark.
"I will turn on the lights", Tenenbaum said. "There."
The lights came on one by one, and as they did, Mr. Bubbles caught another glimpse of their stalker. It was in the room with them, having made it there long before they could. He caught only a glimpse of the shadow exiting the room on the other side. Other than that, all there was in the room was a few benches. Carrying the quiet little sister, Mr. Bubbles went through the Securis door on the other side of the room. No sign of life or anything that moved. The shadow was gone. Barred gates separated them from the train platform and a train that seemed to be functioning still. But the ticket booth and Tenenbaum was on their side of the gates. Mr. Bubbles walked up to the booth and pressed the button for service. The window shutters swung up and the room on the other side became visible through a pane of glass.
Tenenbaum was in there, standing right in front of the window, looking back at Mr. Bubbles with sad eyes.
"Here you are", she said, looking tired. In fact, she looked as if she hadn't slept in a week. Her eyes were dark, her hair dirty and quickly put out the way in a ponytail. Her clothes were torn and uneven. She was a complete mess.
"Can I trust you?" She went on, "will you help me?" The lumbering form didn't answer, its round glowing porthole sensors remaining a neutral yellow.
"Yes. I will trust you. For the little ones." Mr. Bubbles looked around the room. There were several Little Sisters there, but whereas the one on his shoulders had a sickly pale pallor and eyes that glowed yellow, these ones seemed lively and their eyes normal. Normal girls. They were cured. Tenenbaum in turn looked anxiously at his Little Sister. Then she looked back at Mr. Bubbles with pain in her eyes.
"I must ask one thing of you. You must go to Adonis Luxury Resort und drain the lower levels. The little ones, they tell me someone is... waiting, there. Do this, und I will ask this man Sinclair to help me find out who you are." She sighed. "I am sorry to ask so much of you, but I have no other options. I would go, but Sofia Lamb might find me, und the little ones, they won't be safe." She sighed, the weariness in her voice almost cracking. But she was strong
She left the window, only to appear behind the barred gate a few moments later. She stretched her arm through the bars and touched Mr. Bubbles' metal skin, looking straight into his eyes, pleading to him.
"Leave the little one here, und I will cure her", she pleaded. And Mr. Bubbles saw the honesty, and the agony and the pain in her eyes. He put the Little Sister down in front of her, trusting her to give the girl back her humanity. To take her to safety. The girl started to scream when Tenenbaum grabbed her:
"No! No!" But right there, in front of Mr. Bubbles, Tenenbaum gave the girl something that returned color to her cheeks and turned her eyes to normal. She simply closed her glowing yellow eyes, and when she opened them, a pair of big brown eyes looked out. The girl calmed down, sighing in relief.
She was cured.
"This thing", Tenenbaum said, "it disintegrates the slug inside of her und cures her." The cured sister slid through the bars and followed Tenenbaum into the little room.
"You know what you must do", Tenenbaum said when in she was back in safety once more, "I will find out who you are. I promise you, Herr Bubbles." Mr. Bubbles let out a long murmured sigh and set off back from where he'd come. He looked around, but didn't see the shadow.
Andrew Ryan's office, 1958
The writer sat outside the office, waiting. He heard some arguing from the inside, but he couldn't make out the words. The secretary had stepped out and Karlosky was silent as a wall. Big as a wall, too, that Russian body guard of Ryan's. Frightening guy. The waiting made him nervous. After a good ten minutes the door to Andrew Ryan's office opened and a man came out. The writer recognized him immediately. Bill McDonagh. Andrew Ryan's right hand.
"Bill!" Karlosky said happily, "I'm thinking-" But
McDonagh stopped him, looking stressed.
"Not now Ivan. I've got a million things to do. Elaine is home sick with Sophie and there's that leak in pumping station number five, I... who's this?" McDonagh turned to the writer. He stood up, but before he could introduce himself McDonagh went on: "Oh I know you. You're that writer. Missus really liked your book, the one 'bout the moon." Bill McDonagh took him by the hand and managed a smile through the stress.
"Right", the writer said, also smiling courteously.
"Best be off, mate. Leak ain't gonna fix itself. And you better not keep Mr. Ryan waiting." And with that Karlosky led the writer into the office.
"Ah, Mr. Perkins, is it?" Andrew Ryan sat behind his desk, emanating personality. A great man in many aspects. The founder, the creator - the writer - of Rapture. The writer came in and Karlosky behind him.
"Karlosky", Ryan said, "would you wait outside. This will not take long." The body guard left and Ryan turned to the writer. His hard lines and masculine visage, stern face and powerful eyes, threatening to the writer, many years Ryan's junior. The writer seemed almost to shrink in the presence of the great man.
"Mr. Perkins, please, have a seat", Ryan said. The writer sat down on a chair in front of Ryan's desk, without saying anything. First, he wanted to know why Ryan had taken him here. "Mr. Perkins, I have read your latest... book. And I... I'm having a hard time understanding how a man such as yourself could write something that is so clearly against all that Rapture stands for. The message is clear." Ryan looked down and shook his head, then looked up again and almost whispered, "leaving Rapture is not an option."
"Mr. Ryan, sir. I have to tell you, you're mistaken", the writer said. Ryan frowned. "It's not a message at all, Mr. Ryan. It's just a book. Pure fiction." Ryan seemed to try to read the writer's mind. Time seemed to be endless. Almost as if the writer was waiting for his verdict. His hands trembled, but his eyes looked into Ryan's. He was speaking the truth.
"I am not an unforgiving man. I'm willing to believe you, Mr. Perkins. This once. If you tell me it is only fiction and not a message of glorification of the surface... I will believe you. It is true, after all, that I built Rapture to be a city of free speech, but I will not tolerate this kind of propaganda again. I've read your previous book as well, and while your style of authoring is not to my taste I rather liked how you portrayed building Rapture. That is why I'm going to let you keep writing. One more chance, Mr. Perkins. One. Meanwhile, I will make sure this book, Returning to the Source, is no longer sold. You will understand."
The writer did understand. Clearly. Within him the seed was sprouting, Ryan feeding it exactly what it needed.
"Thank you, Mr. Ryan. I assure you, I never meant any such things. I hope you believe me, because I do not wish to back to the surface. I've taken a shine to Rapture and some of the people in it."
"Good", Ryan said, leaning back in his chair, the matter resolved. "Because you cannot leave Rapture." The writer nodded, glad Ryan saw sense. Then Ryan went on: "let me tell you why you are here, Mr. Perkins, in Rapture. Several years ago, I read your dissertation, Industrial Competition and the Way to the Future, and found in the author a man like myself. One who saw the evils of the socialist societies. And when I built this city I wanted people like that author. And I remembered you. I am glad that you did come, but you are much younger than I expected..." He noticed the troubled look on the writer's face.
"Sir, I... didn't write that dissertation. My father did." Maybe he shouldn't have said that. Ryan didn't answer immediately. He just contemplated his options. After a long silence he finally spoke:
"You are not Christian Perkins?"
"Yes, sir. Chris Perkins junior."
"Hm... this calls things into question. Let me ask you... do you share your father's views?"
The writer thought about his answer carefully. Ultimately, he figured honesty would be best, though he still left out all about what he'd come to feel about the working people and the poor - the people.
"Not fully, Mr Ryan. But for the most part I do."
Andrew Ryan frowned. "Go on", he said.
"I'm not a socialist, sir. But neither can I agree with everything that my father wrote." Ryan's frown persisted. The writer went on: "I hope you appreciate my honesty, even though it's not what you want to hear. My father taught me that much. Be honest. And I..." Disappearing people came into his mind again and he fell silent. He regretted not kissing Julia Jensen.
The thoughts raced in Andrew Ryan's head. This young man was in Rapture by mistake, and he was a capable writer who had already written what people might take as anti-Rapture propaganda. But he was also an honest man and Andrew Ryan admired that. Admired that in spite of what might happen, this young man said exactly what he thought. Besides, he had a far bigger problem in Atlas.
"I do appreciate your honesty, Mr. Perkins", he finally said, "I will be true to my word. You will have your second chance. I hope, for your sake, that you use it to show your loyalty to Rapture and to me. I did not build this city only to hand it over to parasites! But rest assured... I will watch, and I will not tolerate any more propaganda against my city."
"I... thank you, Mr. Ryan. I promise you won't regret it."
"We will see, Mr. Perkins." Ryan went on for a moment about how he'd rejected the answers of church and government, reiterating what the writer already knew and had already heard several times before, and how he would not accept dissension.
"Like what was once the American dream, the Rapture dream is something that we cannot take for granted. It is not for everyone; parasites will claw at society, as they have done on the surface. The Rapture dream will not allow it."
"Rapture was your dream, Mr. Ryan", the writer said gloomily, but back straight, "belonging was mine."
The great man chuckled.
"And who are you?" Andrew Ryan said, "small men dream small." He had a smirk on his face, like he felt he was better than the writer.
"That may be", the writer replied, "but big dreams crash harder when they fall."
"Is that a threat, Mr. Perkins?" Ryan's smirk disappeared in an instant and was replaced with ice cold scorn.
"How could a small man threaten a big dream?" The writer said; it sounded almost like he meant 'yes, yes it is'. Ryan frowned, and leaned back in his chair.
"Perhaps", he said, looking the writer deep in the eye, "you are not a small man at all. Perhaps you are a big man, who happens to dream small. There is something more powerful than each of us, Mr. Perkins. A combination of our efforts, a Great Chain of industry that unites us. But it is only when we struggle in our own interest that the chain pulls society in the right direction. That is why I built Rapture here, where the great will not be constrained by the small."
"It's the small dreams and the small deeds that make life."
"A man needs ambition, Mr. Perkins", Ryan began, his tone serious and his face stern, yet he sounded like he was about to give a lecture, "without ambition, he lives only on the ambitions of others, and makes nothing of his own life. He does not build, he does not create, but rather stands upon other men's buildings and creations."
The writer shook his head, and said:
"People do not dream big. People dream small, Mr. Ryan. A better job or a nicer house or kids." Ryan discarded that with a wave of the hand.
"History does not remember job hunters and child makers", he said.
"Maybe it should. Maybe history should remember the men who died in the rain and honor their lives, instead of men who drew lines on maps. These men are the great men of history, it seems, and not those who actually did the deed."
Ryan was silent for a while, saying nothing, but looking the writer in the eyes, like he was trying to read his mind. Or worse, maybe he was deciding his fate. Then he said:
"Rapture was my making, Mr. Perkins, my creation. It is my city; it exists because I made it so. And I do not take lightly, threats against it, its security or its secrecy. What dreams you have is up to you, that is the whole meaning of Rapture, so long as they do not threaten my city. I believe in second chances. This... propaganda that you have written, I can overlook it, so long as you give me your solemn word that you will not repeat it, and go against my city. Do not think that I could not have you... silenced for this. As it happens, there are larger schemes going on, as we are both aware. I do not think you are an agent of Atlas or a Communist organizer, and that is why I'm giving you one more chance to show your loyalty to Rapture."In his controlled authority, Ryan let his Russian ancestry slip in the 'could'.
The writer swallowed and nodded understandingly.
"I am loyal to Rapture, Mr. Ryan", he said, voice weak from Ryan's threats and the realization of how close he came to actually being executed. Ryan finished:
"Karlosky will show you out."
Ryan gave the writer a stern look, and then turned around his chair, turning blankly away. No further words needed to be spoken. The writer got up and went out the door.
Leaving Ryan Industries that night was a writer still in shock. However calm he'd tried to seem to Ryan, he was anything but. The way the great man had been talking confirmed to the writer that the rumors must be true. At least some. And if he didn't watch out he might find the rumors irrefutably true, only he wouldn't be able to tell anyone. It was getting all too clear to writer that there were no actual liberties in Rapture, and that no contender for the throne was in the right. He finally made up his mind. The seed was sprouted. But most devastating was what had come up last. He shouldn't even have been allowed to come to Rapture. The invite he'd received was meant for his father, who passed away just shortly before the letter of recruitment came. The writer was named after his father. He was Christian Perkins, Jr.
Did the invite say Jr.? He wasn't sure. And he didn't have it anymore. Well, he'd be home soon, where a couple of Old Harbinger were waiting for him. Feeling down, he soon remembered Julia. She would probably not want to see him again. He thought about going over to her place to see if she was okay, but decided she didn't want him to. Maybe he should buy a bottle of Lacan Scotch on the way home. |
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